Tuesday 23 October 2012

Times are changing.

I'm finally in Chester studying the Legal Practice Course. But that is not the only thing that has changed. I seem to have started a new chapter in my life, I'm on my own in such a beautiful city and I finally have the freedom to make decisions about my own life without anyone or thing holding me back. The Legal Practice Course is quite a handful, I'm in 4 mornings a week and spend about 5-6 hours every afternoon preparing for the next mornings workshop. I have a sunday job at a quaint little pub round the corner, which pays for much needed mid week cocktails. I've come to the decision that I would quite like to remain in this neck of the woods if possible. Although I am a West Country girl at heart, I feel there are more opportunities in Chester, Liverpool & Manchester for a trainee than in Bristol alone. I still have my heart set on family and child law, I do seem to be in the minority for this which I hope means less competition. 

I wanted to make this first post quite witty but I seem to be significantly lacking in anything to say right now. Since moving here a tornado seems to have spread through my life and everything I was expecting this year to be has blown away. I've had to make some difficult decisions and I've made a few mistakes, I've hurt quite a lot of people in the process. But now I have had time to settle in, stop trying so hard to fit in, things are calming down and I feel quite a lot more at peace with myself this week. Things can only go up from here. If anything, this year is going to bring about a lot of soul searching. I've spent the last 8 years of my life always as someone's other half, jumping from one boyfriend to another without any breathing space, it's time for me to put myself first, concentrate on where I want my life to go and who I want to be, make time for friends and family and all the other sentimental crap you hear on american sitcoms. 

The hardest thing about being here is the fact I very rarely see my friends. We're all so busy and even those who live nearby struggle to have any free time. I do miss them a lot and it's constantly playing on my mind. I've always found it quite hard to make new friends and to actually fit in, so I do find myself pining for my girls. 

This blog post has turned into a bit of an emotional ramble so I think i'll end it here. I promise to be more witty next time.